I know you all have facebook pages, now PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE like my fan page :-)
http://www.facebook.com/ThePinkPages?ref=tn_tnmn
If I reach 50 fans by my blogs birthday (June 16th) I will buy something and give it away to one lucky fan :0) So share my page & blog!!
Your awesome if you do!
IF you don’t then……… You don’t (bum bum bum)
Well, If I don’t stay busy I stress but I stress if I stay busy.
My body is seriously in ruins. I eat when I am stressed, then forgot to eat when I get busy and my sugar nearly bottoms out and I nearly pass out.
What am I supposed to do for 9 months without my bestfriend. How can I find a job that will help me to survive with only a ABA? What if I get lonely? What if no one gets my jokes? What if I fail? What if I am not smart enough? What if I am not skinny enough? What if I am not pretty enough? What then? Where will I go?
Just gotta give it to God. One. By. One.
SO tough when you meet someone so amazing that you want to share your life with but they live 4 & 1/2 hours away X-(
Just so thankful for every single person currently in my life.
Everyone relatively close to me knows this year has been tough REALLY tough
Not just one thing, just many things all at once, I felt like God was playing chicken with me. I fought a battle with depression. Lost several REALLY close friends to TERRIBLE decisions. ALMOST lost the love of my life because I wanted to make myself an island. When I felt the weakest, I thought if no one knew, everything would be ok. He knew my pain, and wouldn’t leave me if I ran to the other side of the globe.
Let me just tell you, My boyfriend is GOD SENT. There is ABSOLUTELY no other explanation. He has truly been my best friend, (corny I know) and been exactly what I needed. I cannot wait to spend the rest of my life with him and I know for a FACT I chose the BEST zombie apocalypse partner. He loves me at my worst and best and thinks the sun shines out my ass, all while keeping me in line and not too high on my high horse.
I am no going through a season of healing, and true growth and it feels SO GOOD :-)
Got a MASSIVE favor to ask all my followers….
PLEASE follow my work tumblr :-)
Its for the green boutique I run and SO many people have requested we start one,
so TA-DA
FOLLOW»> http://wardrobe360.tumblr.com/
**ALSO if you have a FB like their page :-) and remember SHOP LOCAL <3
I made you promises a thousand times
I tried to hear from Heaven
But I talked the whole time
I think I made You too small
I never feared You at all No
If You touched my face would I know You?
Looked into my eyes could I behold You?
What do I know of You
Who spoke me into motion?
Where have I even stood
But the shore along Your ocean?
Are You fire? Are You fury?
Are You sacred? Are You beautiful?
What do I know? What do I know of Holy?
I guess I thought that I had figured You out
I knew all the stories and I learned to talk about
How You were mighty to save
Those were only empty words on a page
Then I caught a glimpse of who You might be
The slightest hint of You brought me down to my knees
What do I know of You
Who spoke me into motion?
Where have I even stood
But the shore along Your ocean?
Are You fire? Are You fury?
Are You sacred? Are You beautiful?
What do I know? What do I know of Holy?
What do I know of Holy?
What do I know of wounds that will heal my shame?
And a God who gave life “its” name?
What do I know of Holy?
Of the One who the angels praise?
All creation knows Your name
On earth and heaven above
What do I know of this love?
Sorry for the delay :-)
Basically, My life fast forward:
* Met the most amazing man and we have been together for 6 months
* We lost my grandfather in July, but my Mimi has been an example of class, grace and faith. They were married 53 years, yet she has no question in her mind it should be God’s timing not hers and it was his turn.
*I had a really rough time with my Papaw going home though, lots of regrets and old hurts surface, but I have learned to open up and let others hear my hurt and let people be there. Tough but I am working on it.
*Fall semester started, tough but I am passing all my classes!
* Quit VS, the place was making me miserable, went to full time managing my mom’s two businesses and I LOVE IT! I have learned ONLY:
Passion leads to success God fueled passion leads to success
*Can’t really think of anything else, I will have to update later too much going on :0) Share my page and I will share yours!!!
I want 50 followers before the new year:-)
Once finals take a back seat The Pink Pages will be back!
Death seems like the hardest thing humans face.
I lost my grandfather this afternoon.
They called hospice in this morning and he died this afternoon.
My parents were with him when he left this earth.
I have no doubt in my mind he is kicking it with Jesus,
But it is still hard. He won’t be at my wedding. He won’t meet my husband. He won’t know that my sister graduates high school and college. He won’t get to see who we grow up to be and make him proud. He doesn’t get to see our happily ever after.
Then I think about my mimi she married him when she was fifteen years old. Now he’s gone. Her soulmate left her here. That makes me cry the hardest. They had what everyone wants, now its just gone.
I woke when my parents left this morning and prayed constantly and just wept so hard, it just felt like things got hard too fast. I couldn’t function all day until he passed. Then things still hurt, and I still cried, but it was easier. I know he was 100% right with God and is waiting on me and the rest of my family, but I was still selfish, I still wanted him here.
Then a dear person in my life quoted these lyrics “Break my heart for what breaks yours” and I got to thinking, God is happy right now, one of his angels made it home with a UH-MAZING testimony and a HILARIOUS sense of humor, He was the biggest trickster! Like a 13 year old boy in his 60 something body. Why am I weeping, I should be celebrating, He is at his prime again, no more pain, no more oxygen tanks or nasty pills he hates or arthritis hands, he is dancing the streets of gold with our maker. He’s watching over me and probably pranking all the other angels with his baby brother Barney who left us not too long ago. I know I need to be strong for the rest of my family, because no matter how amazing it is where he is, we still miss him here.
Simply a see you later, no such thing as a permanent goodbye when you have Jesus in your heart.
Please pray for my family this week <3
I. am. a. jerk.
i. am. not. worthy. of. the. pink.
:-D
Sorry I have not blogged in so long, What have I done instead?
*passed ALL FOUR classes and ONE lab while working TWO jobs.
*met several DISAPPOINTING men, whom luckily excused themselves from my life as quickly as they entered.
*realized that several “friends” in my life are NOT happy for me and need to be excused from my life PRONTO.
*realized I wanted to change my major, then realized I wanted to change it back.
*all my friends came home from college <3
*realized that everyone is going through a battle that you know NOTHING about.
That seems like that it :-)
Not too crazy, a little frustrated. A lot of my friends have their education handed to them, haven’t had to join the real world, and when they look at me and act like I am doing nothing but living with my parents. This does nothing but piss me off. Its ok, in a year or so when I am where I am and you are where you are, you will realize.
Trying to not let it harden my heart, People, sometimes even friends can just be ignorant and inconsiderate and I should learn from it to be more sensitive.
Earth Day.
Good Friday.
Same day.
Coincidence?
Yeah, right.
I like to think about holidays like these from the perspective of the people who loved Jesus from the start. Such as Mary and the disciples.
It helps give a humanly perspective. Imagine Mary watching her only son. Her holy, perfect son that she gave birth to, Getting beaten and hurt and hung up to die. And she couldn’t do anything about it. NOTHING. He chose to take it. At the time she didnt realize but he was doing this for everyone. That would be so overwhelming. And I occasionally feel broken when I feel like I am not heard, or appreciated or I feel abandoned. Yeah, Ok this lady watched her only son get massacred.
Can you imagine the disciples, I am going out to dinner with my friends tomorrow night, imagine one of them telling us they were going to get hung on a cross and die for the world’s sin. I would want to hide them. But then again I wouldn’t, when someone wants to do something so selfless and God-centered even if it may not be the perfect or enjoyable thing for them, You kind of feel led to let them.
Though things have been kind of tough my way lately and I am kind of down in the dumps and discouraged at least I have the opportunity to live the life I have lived this far. Easter is truly about thanksgiving to me, which sounds dumb but I this holiday has truly helped me to keep my heart in check and remember to give God the glory and thanks that I am capable of. Because he did his part, the ball is in my court. He died for me, the least I can do is live for him.
By: The girl in the pink.
Theme designed by Kayla Guerrero of Tumblr.
